...eleven...

I know, right?! He's 11 months old today!!! What in THE world??? The next time I write a monthupdate- will be on his BIRTHDAY!!! ::WAAAAAAHHHH!!:: My baby boy is growing up... and not only is he just the biggest lil' chunk there is... but he's starting to act like a big boy too!!! I often catch myself staring at him w/ my hand on my hip in a sassy way telling him- "you may be the size of a 2 year old... but you're not in your terrible two's yet, buster!" He's just gotten so much personality lately...and by personality- I mean- he knows what he wants and doesn't want and DANG IT you'd better be on the same page as him! LOL. I love it though- I really do. Let's see- he's been pulling himself up really well...and now he walks along the couch or will walk w/ us if we hold his hands- except- he gets bored of it real quick (as in- the first 5 steps) and demands to crawl! He gives kisses like crazy- which I cannot get enough of- and sometimes when I tell him that I love him- he'll automatically give me kisses! ::sigh!:: He's finally saying "dadadada"- for a while he'd only say mamamamamam or babababababa or apapapapapapa but no "dada" and while "appa" means dad in Korean- DLo informed me that it means nothing to him since he didn't grow up hearing it. ::scowl:: So- I put Jude through "'dada' bootcamp"!!! He is funny too he faux talks and it's just great! We were at a "reunion" the other day- and I was holding Jude and he was babbling- and I would respond back by mimicking him... and I realized one of my friends looking at me- and just said- Yup- this is what I do ALL day!!! And... I love it! I've been "planning" his party for a while now... meaning- stressing over it. W/ the 9million people in DLo's family... kinda limits the amount of friends we can invite w/o being overly crowded.... unless I throw a family party and a friends party... but then it's like... he's ONE...do I really have 2 parties?! And- I don't want people to feel like they need to bring gifts and stuff... so. I'm kinda... not knowing what to do! Never really threw a party for my child before- ya know?! :D I digress!



Jude-
Mommy and Daddy love you so much. Words cannot express how blessed I have been to be able to watch you grow from this tiny lil squirmy smoosh to the lil' lover that smiles when you see me in the mornings- saying "mamamamama" and smacking me on the face w/ your fat lil' fingers! I LOVE every-single-second of it... You are growing up way too fast... I feel like every time I blink- you're learning something new... and I know that one day- I'll be staring at my grown boy thinking the same thing... I love you, son. I pray that you will have a passion for the Lord and will do mighty things for His kingdom... I look forward to watching you continue growing... I just ...wish time would go a wee bit slower... :)
-Mommy

...blog vomit...

Lots of things on my mind lately...and not alot of time to blog... so... here's my brain dump...

got to make a decision about going back to work next year- i know what i'm going to do- it just unsettles me to make things so "final"... still haven't finished editing christina's pictures- which irritate me- but i can only edit them on dlo's computer- and he's stingy w/ his computer time... there are people that i have encountered in life- that i wish i had not- they only cause frustration and bring me down- i wish i could open up a can on them- but my love of JC stops me... i am so in love w/ my husband, but often don't feel like i show him enough... i really want to take a photography class, but i don't know if i can commit to doing it... i also really miss singing- it hurts my heart, actually... i have awesome friends- i love them dearly and wish we could spend more time together... i look forward to the future of my family- derrick and i were talking about things we'd like to do as jude gets older- warms my heart... playing at westgate is way fun- dlo and i need to do it more often... i need to be in the Word more- i disappoint myself greatly in this area... i also need to be more guarded- i'm the open book that needs to be slightly less open... speaking of books- i've read a butt TON of them lately (16 books this year)- some really good and some- not so much... i'll read pretty much anything and everything- but i prefer "children's books"... wish i had more time to finally start my photography business legitimately- need to do more shoots- feel like i'm getting rusty... i'm having issues w/ my back- which actually hasn't been bothering me lately- but the chiropractor that i saw isn't communitcating w/ me anymore- which irritates me- although- i heard he had a death in the family- but it's been a MONTH- get w/ it sir- or get your peeps to contact me... i had a moment where i really missed being pregnant- but- i am still not convinced that i want more children- and i'm not convinced that i'm done having children either- mostly- i love jude so much- i can't imagine sharing myself w/ anyone else... i have been loving the amount of time jude has gotten to spend w/ my parents- it warms my heart when he throws himself out of my arms to go see my dad... i wish jude got to see dlo's parents/family more- but they all live so far away... excited to go see family in TN in about a month... sad that b/c i'll be in TN, i'll miss leslie's grad- and hearing mr. obama speak- not that i care for obama, but it would have been rad to hear the current prez speak at something... i'm constantly cleaning the house- which irritates me b/c i'm a complete neat freak- and the house is never neat anymore- no matter what my friends say!!!... i love my HT- i especially love that my bff is coming now- it's great to have "moments" w/ her during deep discussion time! reminds me of being at work- so- i won't miss it as much when i turn in my letter of resignation... i'm pretty sure i'm back to my "prejude" weight- which most people would be congratulating me for- except- that means i've actually gained weight b/c i had lost all my baby weight plus some... i need to exercise more... looking forward to the summer... can't believe my baby boy will be one next month... love watching him grow and learn new things- i just know he's going to start walking soon... my favorite thing in life right now is when jude gives us kisses- nice big open mouthed slobber kisses- it's sweet when he gives them w/o being asked too- melts me heart... i'm pretty sure that being a mother is the best thing that has ever happened to me- i just wish that i could still balance out that and being a wife and being me... i feel guilty that i get to stay home w/ my boy- when my gf's had to work... excited to spend time w/ marc-ymarc and trish and ella and the gang on sunday... eyes are starting to get droopy and my contacts are drying up...

Guess that's my cue to stop writing, eh?

...bottles and cans...

...just clap your hands! DCB anyone? anyone? anyone? Hmmm. NM then! :D

So. I was cleaning Jude's bottles this morning... and it dawned on me. He won't be drinking formula anymore in a little over a month! I won't need to buy (or have my mom buy, rather) formula anymore! ::tears:: What?! My baby boy is growing up into a big boy!!! ::WAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!:: My heart is hurting just a wee bit.... why does time fly when you DON'T want it to?

...HISMFSB part4...

::sigh:: It's Monday. Which means my friends are back to work. How depressing for all of us! I had a great week w/ my gals! But the entire week was building towards Sat. night... our Twilight DVD Premiere party!!! (I know, I know...whatev!) Personally- I think we hyped the party up more than it actually ended up being... but it was still fun! I enjoyed spending time w/ my girlfriends and getting all sparkled up! It was also great to watch- and laugh- at the hilarity that is the movie! (I even enjoyed watching the DVD commentary w/ Linds the next day!) Here are some pictures of our night:

**Sidenote: I had written this blog a week ago... and realized that I never POSTED it! Duh, Kim!**

...HISMFSB part3...

Girls night. Gotta love them...especially if you've got great girlfriends! It's a tradition (I'm sure I've blogged about it before)... for Les, Jaime, Tiff, and I to go to Oregano's to celebrate our bdays.... Tiffany has moved to Oregon- but is in town...so we went to celebrate her coming back- and a belated bday for me! We always go to the same Oregano's and ALWAYS order the same thing: Oregano's Favorite Salad, Pizza (1/2 pepperoni, 1/2 veggie), Baked Ziti, and -of course- Pizza Cookies!!!! I LOVE going to Oregano's w/ these girls... it's a time for fun stories...great food...and awesome company!

Highlights:
Brody telling Les to "pull ober da car mom..." b/c Matti was being mean... Salty Senorita... Friendship bracelets- that may or maynot break... the overly bubbly Oregano's workers- seriously- I would be fired 2mins in b/c I could NEVER be that peppy... big tables- it's about darn time they gave us enough room!... "the razor" incident- or- what should have been an incident, but wasn't b/c the cap was still on... that one pretty much tops EVERYTHING!

...Happy Anniversary Shout Outs...

Happy Anniversary to:

Love and Eddie- 2 years today...

Jaime and Jonathan- 5 years today...

Mom and Dad- 30 years yesterday!!!

So- it was my parents anniversary yesterday...and what did I get them? Well...they got ME and Jude dinner! Is that sad or what?! I promise I'll do something wicked cool for their 50th! (Which would make my dad 89 years old- sad.) Anywho. Jude got his first meal off the Kids Menu too.... not on purpose... I just asked for a lil plate of grilled chicken for him... didn't know it was going to come w/ soup, spaghetti and broccoli! What in the world?! But. In true fatkid fashion... Jude at ALL the beans and noodles out of his Pasta e fagoli and ate 1/2 his chicken and broccoli! Go son!!! lol. My parents were tickled watching him! It was pretty comical! (Why is Jude biting my foot right now?!)

...HISMFSB part2...

So. I am starting to get depressed. Today is Friday....the last day my friends are on Spring Break... what will I do when they go back to work?! How will I occupy my time?! Well... I think Jude and I will continue going to Westgate... and perhaps we'll connect with some more SAHM's... but.... I shall miss calling my gf's and randomly dropping in on their family time!... which is what I did on Thursday! I bombarded the Schmadeke's Family Westgate Picnic... Jude and I had fun eating cantaloupe and watching everyone have fun... Jude was STILL afraid of the fountains- although, he at least attempted to touch the water on his own! Then we had some delicious Cold Stone before heading home!

Some highlights: $5 Westgate coupons-that apparently my son is not cute enough to score for mom... Spiderman towels... Dirty cantaloupes... SPF50... "What if I'm not the hero"... Superb Coldstone employees... Fragile cones... the Heath Bar/Kit Kat debacle... the strange lady who believed Jonathan when he said that Jude was for sale... the Fly... Goodtimes...